Recently I wrote an entry that stated that nothing is going to happen in 2012. I now take that back.

I have come to a major realization abou this date and what may indeed occur. Alas my anger towards people that abuse spirituality for money, and those insufferable people that insist that what is in their books is the only way.

Until very recently I lost my belief in Karma as so many abusive people seem to be in postitions of power and seem to be getting away, sometimes literaly, with murder, whereas people that actually try to make this earth a better place seem to be no longer wanted. But a massive and glaring example of Karmic payback was shown to the entire world a few days ago as China suffered a terrible earthquake.

So it hit me. I have so long been wanting to see people pay for the things they do wrong, as I have, that I almost lost my compassion for the members of society that commit awful crimes agains humanity and our home.

Now I see, it's not about people paying for their wrongs, it's about helping them to NOT wrong in the first place. As one thing is for sure, A small amount of people in China might skin animals alive, they might farm moon bears for bile, they might kill peaceful tibetan protestors, they might kill their own children or sell them as a commodity, but they are human and did not deserve that earthquake!

I have written many a post here and there about how we are all equal, that I believe in you, that I find you all beautiful. I know some people have read it from the comments they have left I'm hoping I have been able to reach more and help them to come to realise that they are powerful, beautiful beings and do not need to "obey" the demands of a sick society but can, just with very simple acts, change the world.

And that's it isn't it. I still don't see great ships coming to take us away in 2012 as some people have tried to tell me, I don't see the WHOLE world changing it's views in 4 years time, but I now believe that if we can reach more people, and they can reach more people, we may just be able to swing the pendulum back the other way and turn the tide of destruction and thus make way for a better world.

However, there are dangers in this. There are those that wish the world to stay in this chaotic state, that wish to keep us repressed, docile, consuming, obedient and most importantly, in debt and at war. And alas these people are not powerful jsut because they number in the millions, but they are powerful because they, literally, have the guns, where as all we have is our heart and spirit. Think back to the bloody disputes and riots that happened in Indai whilst Ghandi was in prison... and out of it. The British so horribly abused the bullet in order to protect the pound then, and the Banks, the Governments, the Megacorporations will equally abuse some power in order to protect the dollar, the euro, the yen.

Why? Because these "people of power" mistakenly believe that money is how to get power, they believe that you can control everything with money. And this ladies and gentlemen is why people that sell spirituality REALLY PISS ME OFF, because spirituality, or at least the basic principles of the many spiritual paths are what will help free us from this money focussed state of being, yet there are those that are drowning spirituality in money!

I do not charge for healings or readings, why? becuase IT'S NOT MY ENERGY! I am only a conduit and it is my job and my purpouse to heal and read for people.

So anyway, stepping out of anger, I now see I have a new focus, to help reach more people and wake them up to how beautiful they are, and to try to create a state of beauty on earth.

but I CANNOT DO THIS WITHOUT YOU! You do not need to pay money for this, You do not have to be anywhere at any time, you do not have to do anything other than just be the true you! just enjoy your life for everything that it is, just wake up to compassion, love and peace, not just with the world, but with yourself (which is always the hardest part of the path).

As Always,
I love you all my Dear Brothers and Sisters of the Great Tribe of Humankind!
Sunbird
Chieftain - The Tribe of The Spirit Bear (www.spiritbear.co.uk)
Battle Chieftain - The Loyal Arthurian Warband (www.warband.org)

Hey all,

I am often told that I should meet with this person or that person. which is great, I like to meet new people, I love to chat about spirituality, I love to learn new things and see other points of view.

However, more and ever more recently, I find that these people are "selling spirituality", actually charging money for you to gain access to knwoledge that in fact is all around you. It began with medieaval Christianity demanding that if you wanted to go to church you had to pay for it, and of course if you didn't pay, you couldn't get in and were thus branded evil (rolls eyes). There have been numerous cults that demand huge amounts of money to join and then top yourself and more recently there is Scientology (Need I say more?) But perhaps one of the most widely spread spiritual views that is being VASTLY misused is that of the Mayan Tzolkin, a calendar of 13 months and one day out of time which is actually REALLY good.

However, attached to the Tzolkin is some idea that in 2012 the end of time and thus some great change is coming. I like the idea, but I am also a realist.

I was recently asked to meet another person here in Edinburgh, I was actually looking forward to meeting them until I saw their web page where it stated that this person was a member of the Plieadean High Council and that he was raising money (in the thousands) for a galactic cause.... I wasn't aware that Aliens took mastercard or traded in pounds sterling....

So, I'm sorry guys and glas, I'm going to blow this whole Plieadean thing and the whole idea of 2012 out of the water and try YET AGAIN to make people see sense.

A note on the Plieades:
They are a group of aroud 14 stars, generally speaking only 7 are visible to the naked eye, thus the mongolian people call them the seven sisters. Most shamanic cultures say they are either the original home of the Gods or the original home of humanity, but all these stories say that we/they LEFT there to come here, none point to the fact that we can ever return there or that there are still beings that live there. The rest of the stories point to the stars being the bodies of deities that have been killed or are gifted with the ability to shine down on us. The Ancient people did NOT talk about a "Plieadean High Council" which is what half these money grabbing folks claim to be members of! the Only high council mentioned in a pagan socieyt that I have EVER found reference to is the Council of immortals, headed by Hu Gadarn (the Ancestor deity that led the Cymru out of Sumeria, Built Troy and then brought the Cymru (original british Celts) to Prydain (Britain)) and is comprised of very special ancestors who lived their life in total honour. But even this seems to be nothing more than a work of romantacised fiction, a concept of the Christian Heaven inserted into a pagan culture that venerated the cycles of death and life.

Sirius has sometimes, and even then very rarely, been called the next place that we will go to, but we are not talking about 2012, we are talking MILLIONS of years from now.

this whole 2012 thing is pure speculation, human beings being discontent with the way things are, coupled with being TOO FECKING LAZY to do anything about it, are more content to sit and wait for a magical date where we will all be delivered from the present state, thus not having to come to terms with they way things are, the damage we have done, the deeds of great evil commited by individuals but in the name of entire countries, climate change, war, famine, death, disease. Face it chaps, this planet is our home, there is no excuse for what we have done bar ignorance and stupidity. The only likely scenarios of what could happen in 2012 are: total war as the oil reserves run out, the flooding of all major cities and land masses as the ice caps melt, the yellowstone supervolcano eruption, the next ice age, or a mega disease caused by man's abuse of nature wiping us all out..... well, I guess that takes us to a new state of being, jsut not the pink fluffy clouds of sugar dripped honey love that these charlatans would have us paying money for. Oh, and yes, I expect it is also the time that either the Calendar needs to be re-written or begun again.

No great aliens are coming on a rocket ship to take us away, No huge shift in human consciousness is coming to make us all lovey dovey peaceful fluffy. This planet is our home for the next few million years, IF WE ARE LUCKY ENOUGH TO SURVIVE THAT LONG, it has war, it has pain, it has death, it has disease, it ahs lies, it has deciet, it has debt, but it also has SO MUCH BEAUTY!!! Why keep looking forward to something you know NOTHING about? Why not just look around youand be happy with what you've got, or if you're not happy with it, CHANGE IT, that's why you were given hands, a brain and language!

Thanks go out to our Dear Friends Paul and Craig for a beautiful weekend of Beltane Camp and Ceremony!

I’ve once again fallen in love with Cumbria (YES even the Honniston Pass which I managed to drive the entire length of with a serious panic attack!) and we’re really looking forward to spending more time with Paul and Craig for Ceremonies and just bloody good fun. Craig and Tammie are definately twin souls, which you can see through the randomness, sense of humour and bright souls as they kept us all laughing througout the weekend.

Castlerigg together with Paul taught me a valuable lesson, that perhaps I am too quick to judge people by my experience, and sometimes people standing on standing stones aren’t really doing any damage, they’re just very happy to be there.

Thanks also to Craig for helping me to learn new ways of coping with my panic attacks and for having the patience to not get angry with me as I snapped and shouted at people whilst suffering from a bad one as we drove along the Honniston Pass (however, whoever you are that drove taht audi that nearly knocked us off the cliff, hope I never find out who you are you prat!)

It was great to meet Skippy, Sarah and her family, sorry I fell asleep when we got back from the stones, I was wiped out, but I hope to get to see you all again at Summer Solstice.

And now to important news. Tammie and I have talked about it and we have now decided on a location for our wedding. We want to try to get it in Cumbria

So, many people that know me know that I suffer from gross amounts of panic attacks that range from a few minutes of quietness as I sit and tap my leg to try and bring myself round to full on loss of sight or fear of dying.

One thing is for sure, these attacks have a HUGE impact on my mood and my reactions to everyday things, even the slightest thing can become irritating and whereas I'm a naturally loving and tactile person giving loads of cuddles and compliments, when an attack comes on I can be so confused that even I don't know whether I need affection or jsut silence and my poor wife is left not knowing what to do, but thank the Gods she's an incredibly patient person and always tries her best to bring me back down to earth.

She'd often giggle as I speculated if I have CJD, a Brain Tumour, a Stroke, Brain Damage. Thankfully he's grounded enough to remind me I'm just a hypocondriac lol.

She had suggested that I might be suffering from Menier's Disease (which is an inner ear disorder) but the symptoms I have are nothing like the symptoms of menier's. If anyone wants to know what it's like for me, usually once or twice a day, sometimes more (like today where they've been almost constant), look on a website dedicated to panic disorder, read the list of symptoms and add them all together, that's how I feel.

So what are my options? I can either be put on a dose of SSRi's for the rest of my life which will need to be made stronger as my body gets used to the medicine.... or I can carry on doing the things I've been doing (deep breathing, ryhtmic tapping, carrying "familiar" objects etc).

So this is kinda scary as until I read that this could actually be a disorder I thought there might actually be an end to these damn attacks.... Now it seems there isn't a light at the end of the tunnel for me.